Me and in me!

Jessy Jacob ❤️

There were moments when I wondered if Radha ever believed Krishna would return to her. Perhaps love itself is waiting without certainty, yet still believing.

I know, deep within my soul, that my Lord Krishna would one day come to me. In the ecstatic silence of the ISKCON temple, I felt the divine touch my spirit. It was as though he entered my life with a purpose — to guide me back home at a time when my mind was preparing for another journey, even toward a life of naturalization in the USA.

Some truths remained hidden. He never revealed the secrets of his life, and I too walked through this world masked, unable to reveal who I truly was — an alien soul made for an alien and world. My life has always carried enigmas, mysteries unfolding only after they happen. Yet whenever I paused to understand the situations around me, I could trace the hidden flaws, the unseen “bugs” within life itself. Along this path, I traveled through unknown twists and silent storms.

Even now, my road is unclear. But I have learned one thing: while others create scenarios and illusions, I create my own path.

There are days when my imagination becomes my refuge. I picture a life I could not fully hold in reality — my husband beside me, our home filled with warmth, my son leaving for school after eating the breakfast I lovingly prepared. These thoughts comfort me. They allow happiness to bloom, even if only in my heart. Yet when depression surrounds me, the same world appears cold and colorless.

What hurts me most is when people mistake my patience for weakness. I remain silent not because I cannot fight, but because I choose peace over endless arguments. I still remember my father’s words: “Be bold and strong.” Those words became my armor.

I live with patience, but I do not allow evil to take advantage of me. I protect my life, and I will never stand beside those who hurt innocent people. I do not beg evil to stop hurting me; instead, I learn how to stop the hurt from reaching my soul.

My life is in my own hands. I face every trouble that comes before me, and with courage, I continue building my life for myself and my family.

— Jessy Jacob ❤️