My life wasnt fairy tale but i was.

My life wasnt fairy tale but i lived like i am part of fairy tale character 

I live honest life without cheating any one this with no remark and my honesty 

I said not lie that hurted any 

I am true to myself 

I didn’t live a life of lusty women who seek for pleasure 

I never cheated anyone not even my x husband and i departed from him saying I can’t cheat you.

I hurted my son and i promised him at his 3 yrs that i will take care of your and come back to you while leaving him

I respect my parents and never hurted them and tried whatever i can for them

These characters you see in fairy tales example like Cinderella 

Lately I realised that i lived her life expecting my man return to me

But he passed through my way like an eclipse coming inbetween my son and me blocking me like how moon comes inbetween earth and sun a solar eclipse and lunar Eclipse where earth comes inbetween sun and moon.

I scare i feel i belong to 50 yrs beyond like the time of my grand parents 

I see my characters found in bhagavad geetha and ramayan where loyalty trust honest dharma

All these in this Kali Yuga are just myth to the people who just live like animals for sex and drinks.

I lived my life true following rules of God never cheated any but following thinking it has to be followed 

What is there in following adharma leading a life of bitch lying down for pleasure

I did live like this without expecting a game or praise but i lived so because this is my way 

I haven’t received any appreciation for my behaviour not even from my family but people took advantage of my behaviour and honesty

I still continue to live because I can i know I will and degrade my self to live bitch life not afraid of bad karma but because this is me 

I teach this to my son too to live like me. I don’t need money I don’t need fame 

Many freedom fighters lived honestly for their mother land and i follow them

I love to live simple with one gram jewellery and full glass bangles and a nice saree. My fav color is grey/ash that’s very dull color but it lightens my eyes the color to select to wear.

I was silent in school not talking much to my friends even in office I stay calm and i am not of talkative to engage people 

I keep myself in my world 

I love God doing pooja is my ritual which always makes me a devotee that i follow divinity in my love to God 

I don’t fight with any 

I don’t like to expose my flesh never i would like to wear sleeveless I like feet touch skirts or frocks. 

I am in my later mid forties i look simple my grey hair shows my age visible i eat balanced not over eating 

I never fall into arguments i never want to argue i stop myself when other person doesn’t understand me 

I like to take care of my son I miss him alot 

I love married life in-laws 

I love my grand parents 

I love studying subject latest technology and doing rangoli on floor 

I lived like a celibate in my youth and after my divorce. Thinking no need to enjoy life i am fine and now i am serious in doing social service so i am preparing for state government groups exam. I already cleared lawcet on way to do LLB.

I selected government jobs so that I can do something.

I am scared seeing my life going through where people are eating my body breaking my body . I am not scared of them because they can’t do anything to me and that is my strength my attitude of positivity 

I live my life when God has given me so much age I will use it for good purpose. Definitely.

I will overcome all my troubles when God is with me i am not scared.

My business dream is still active but in a different route to help and guide people to make them self employed entrepreneurs. 

I dreamt of me becoming entrepreneur but now God has given me a chance to make people entrepreneurs.

For this life this is what i can do i am suffice to it 

I am not greedy never voracious and my anger is controlled thought i gush it out only to others to make them not to do wrong.

My whole life is a book that can inspire and teach many. This is half of my life and other half i see i already started sailing in my boat.

Jessy Jacob ❤️/Bharati.