from the outside looking in
minutes pass without change
this lost spirit flooded with sin
distorted visions so strange
walking around in a lucid trance
under this destructive spell
seems so normal from a glance
i’m locked between heaven and hell
so many choices
which one’s right
two different voices
neither shedding light
three sides to every story
feeling a step behind
living life inside my purgatory
and i’m losing my mind
from the inside wanting out
desperately breaking the chain
with all this chaos lurking about
time’s against the grain
dreaming beneath this tainted angle
bridges have been burnt
searching for grace my fallen angel
in this world we hurt
so many choices
which one’s right
two different voices
neither shedding light
three sides to every story
feeling a step behind
living life inside my purgatory
and i’m losing my mind
Copyright @ Damian DeadLove 2000
This one has a bit of an alienated, dissociated vibe, one I know very well. Damn, how this resonates, my friend.
Were you able to hear it on here this time? Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Duende. Appreciate you.
Damian
You did this well without having a mic. Nicely done, Damian;))
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Fia. So glad you’re able to hear it my friend. Never know if it’s going to work. Did you hear it here, or the copy I sent? Either way glad you liked it. Appreciate you.
Damian
The copy.;))
Excellent piece of poetry Damian. Nice work.
Thanks so much for reading and listening, and most of all your kind words, Keith. Glad you liked the write my friend. Appreciate you.
Damian
Introspection certainly can make you second guess yourself. Repetitive thoughts of “What if’s…”, and “could’ve, should’ve, would’ve” adds another dimension. There is an unrelenting tension throughout your poem that never unclenches. Great write Damian!
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Angel. Sorry, if the audio didn’t work I need to try and fix it. Glad you enjoyed the words themselves. Appreciate you.
Damian
Okay, I’m excited i could actually listen to the audio on this one! It’s a very relatable piece. I think we’ve all been in that headspace a time or two. The constant questioning…solid, my friend
Thanks so much for reading/listening and for your kind words, Willow. So glad you liked the piece. Actually, when I wrote it, I thought I was just putting down some lyrics per usual. Just some random thoughts, like my late night musings are. After putting it to music with Joey G back in 2000. I realized what it was really about. I had just broken up with my girlfriend at the time. My first real relationship is in certain lines, I could dissect it, but it would take a while. Maybe that could be a chapter in the story of my life, that is currently being written. Never know, stranger things have happened. You always make me ponder my friend, and that’s a good thing. Appreciate you.
Damian
hello dearest Damian I had no idea you felt this way sometimes you seem so confident
you did beautifully at expressing yourself it resonates deeply ❤️I have been in a disconnected state of late this made me cry so much suppression going on I feel it is much like your purgatory… great song
Thanks so much for reading/listening and your kind words, Brenda. So glad you connected with the words and liked the song. I felt that way a lot, when I was drinking. I’ve been a different person the last two years because of sobriety. But these events in life made me who I am. I hope things get better my friend, all you can do is keep moving forward. Appreciate you.
Damian