Love & Regret

I used to know her when we were ten.
We spent a lot of time together.
But I didn’t know what it meant.

She told me one day,please listen close.
It’s been a while,and we’ve gotten quite close.
She used to take me out for icecream.

And then for hot chocolate in cold winters.
I wanted to tell her.
But my fears were stopping me entirely.

They say,she doesnt like you that way.
Her fears also said.
That it’ll be better if she’s dead.

Saying,he will find someone better for that.
And sometimes,she felt like a drowned rat.
She used to crack jokes and I would just laugh.

I wanted to cherish the connection me and her had.
At the time,she never told me.
But she cries in loneliness at night.

Near her nightstand.
She wanted somebody to hold.
To make her feel like she isn’t alone at night.

And her words then gave me fright.
All this time she actually loved me.
And I did not realize.

She tells me,I love you more than you realize.
More than you can see with your very eyes.
Alas,back then we were too young.

Too young to understand,
And too young to withstand.
She says to me when I sleep.

Rockabye my baby,sleep very deep.
She told me darling,I love you so.
There is something I always deep down had known.

And with time,we have grown.
She says,you might aswell take my soul.
For it’s already full of you.

They say for years,the girl stuck to fiction.
She didn’t believe she could fall for someone real.
And so,she was unsure how to feel.

The day she heard the first confession,her face heat up.
For she didn’t believe she was lovable.
And then she had met a non fictional man.

She told me she had loved me by the water fountain we met.
This is a story of love and regret.
She was different before they met.

When she dances with somebody else,she feels foul.
Her body,feelings slowly grow.