Tantalus: the torment of almost

please make it stop please
no let me keep it forever

it pulses thru me like lightnin strikes
caught between solid ground and endless air
each cell ablaze with that simple image
feet on the edge with arms spread wide

no words exists for this current
racin up my spine
joltin thru nerve endins
the same feeling that tore me from sleep
now refuses to release me

my body convulses with sensation
intense and violent
tremblin hands reach for meanin in empty air
as another wave crashes thru my chest

tension coiled tight without resolution
beads of anticipation gather
caught in the cruelty of almost
the cliff’s promise never fulfilled

please make it stop please
no let me keep it forever

this has branded itself on my consciousness
that perfect moment of suspension
makin hallowed ground of common tile
where I kneel…retchin out nothin

I try to understand what my cells already know
why this image? why this feeling?
knowledge that bypasses mind
to settle directly in my nerves

between heaves I am reduced to feelin
no epiphany. no wisdom. just raw experience
skin electric with the unspoken
thoughts drownin in a risin heat

my throat burns from expulsion
as this rapture pours thru me
my fingers still tingle with electricity
stomach clenches with each new surge

is this madness or enlightenment?
how can something so simple
grip my body with such force?
just a cliff and its void

I am being ripped apart and remade
with each storm that rolls thru me
forever on the edge of revelation
that remains out of reach

please make it stop please
no
let me keep it forever