just one more time
please
let me feel it settle into my palms
warm and certain
like it belongs there
like it knows me
I’ll take the weight again
let it grind its teeth into my shoulders
split my hands open
spill me out across the climb
if I can have that dizzy breath
that sky touchin hush
before it rolls
I know it won’t stay
I know it’s already shiftin
I can feel the tremor in it
same as the one in me
but please
let me believe
this time I’ll hold it
this time I won’t slide
back into the dirt
this time I won’t be
on my knees
beggin for the thing
that’s tried killin me for years
and when it crushes me
b/c it will
don’t pull me away
don’t save me from the tumble
let me chase it down again
hands raw
lungs burnin
mouth open
like I could swallow it whole
just to feel it inside me once more
I’ll keep pushin
keep bleedin for it
keep feedin it
whatever pieces of me it asks for
til there’s nothin left
but my breath in its shadow
just one more time
just one more
just…
It’s like you are begging for one last chance to feel it again. You would take whatever is dealt your way just for that chance.
push it up the hill. just for it to roll back down.
Powerfully penned, Ambjr. Felt this one my friend, incredible write. Appreciate you.
Damian
appreciate it