Being an alcoholic has levels
Cul-de-sac’s and rabbit holes
Navigating through quicksand
While the mind is sinking slow
Walking amongst shadows
The lines often get blurred
It’s a pity party at the gallows
Where good ideas go to die
Suffocating light with resent
While madness stirs the drink
Slurring words to self-soothe
Eyes floating unable to think
Flirting with pain to feel alive
Silence chilling tears into ice
The hermit hiding in sanctuary
Always refusing sound advice
Copyright @ Damian DeadLove 2025
hello dearest Damian I was an alcoholic for awhile it was a very painful experience…I would often write things I was ashamed of later when sober… this describes it perfectly great write 💕
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Brenda. So glad you connected with the write my friend. It is a painful experience, indeed. Been there before, being ashamed of some of my writes. My vault has lots of poems, lyrics, and ideas. I even possess a lot of my old notebooks, including the very first one. I don’t share from that book, it was really bad. lol. But I also have a section of writes where I don’t even know who that person is, when I was drunk and depressed I was a mess. Those works are kept as a reminder of how bad my state of living was. Appreciate you.
Damian
My mother was an alcoholic. She’d go out and start fights with my father when she came home. It was a miserable existence for me and my father. Although I never drank or took drugs I can relate to this somewhat. It’s obvious no one could write this without experience. I’m glad you’re still doing good.
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Tim. So glad you connected with the write my friend. You know what it’s all about then, just from a different point of view. Alcoholics are often guilty of hurting those closest to them. In our minds we’re only hurting ourselves, not realizing that those who love us are a casualty of the disease as well. Thank you, brother. I never want to be that person again. Appreciate you.
Damian
Your a super talented dude. Glad you kicked alcohol. You’re a treasure to have as a friend and as a poet.
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Keith. So glad you connected with the write my friend. You’re not the only one, I don’t miss those days. Right back at you, brother. Appreciate you.
Damian
My daughter struggles with her alcohol addiction. And my roommate struggles with it. I often wonder what this world is doing to us with numbers so high. It’s rarely “just for kicks” that addiction exists. This one makes me think. Well done, my friend
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Willow. So glad you connected with the write my friend. I think for me it started as an escape, then in it seeped into my writing, at one time I actually thought I couldn’t write without booze. Like I said, there are layers to addiction. I understand their struggles, it’s not easy to let go of something that becomes part of one’s being. Appreciate you.
Damian
You well describe this kind of madness that comes with alcoholism. I used to be there, hearing those words, “You shouldn’t drink so much”. Often, they were my own words. “Pity party at the gallows”–I like that. Many end up swingin’.
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Sam. So glad you connected with the write my friend. I don’t miss those days in my life, and there were many of them unfortunately. I dig that line as well. Always an honor to meet a fellow survivor. Appreciate you.
Damian
I rarely touch a drop (my brother had a huge drink problem) but because of my line of work (I once used to lead up to around a dozen alc detoxes per week .. some of them taking up to 10 days to complete safely, I know the horrors associated with alcohol addiction .. and the risks associated with it .. and the problem staying off when dry .. I take my hat off to you Damian and so much enjoyed my visit here just now .. Neville
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Neville. So glad you connected with the write my friend. You’ve faced it from a different point of view, which means you’ve witnessed those horrors in realtime my friend. Part of sobriety has been digging deep into my psyche, to understand my ticks and how they make me tick. lol. And not take myself so seriously all the time, try to enjoy the moment and not overanalyze every damn thing. Easier said than done, but I try. Thanks for your heartfelt commentary, means a lot to me. I’m glad you enjoyed the visit, and continue to support my work. Appreciate you.
Damian
No worries, but to quote L’Oréal .. Becuz ya worth it .. Neville 😎👍