I’ve been loud
in all of the wrong ways
silent in the ones
that actually mattered
beat myself bloody
against walls I built
just to prove I can’t escape
a joint in one hand
anxiety in the other
smoke tryin to blur the edges
while my pulse keeps count
of every fuck up I can’t bury
I am lost and broken
scarred by shattered glass
edges sharp enough
to carve my palms bloody
only holdin myself together
by not lettin go
and still
I need you
I need you like air
when it burns in my chest
like water I can’t swallow
for fear of drownin
like the weight of the night
pressin down til I break
and sayin it
makes me feel stupid
like I’m handin over my heart
like I’m lettin you see
the weakest part of me
a scar I keep packin with salt
so it’ll never learn how to close
I am nothin clean
not a man you can fix
and I love that you don’t try to
that you don’t come at me
with stitches and glue
you just stand in it with me
and don’t look away
and if you can stand the mess
if you can stand the noise
I’ll whisper it again
thru the madness
thru the calm
thru the ache
I need you
I need you
goddamnit
I need you
and it makes me feel
so fuckin stupid








hello dearest poet this is so beautiful there is beauty in pain there is beauty in monsters alter that and you have nothing…I love someone too where he is I think a part of him needs me… perhaps perhaps not 💕
thank you
Powerfully penned, Ambjr. Incredible write my friend. Appreciate you.
Damian
appreciate it
To show weakness to the one you care about is love. And this is beautiful
thank you fia