father’s day

hey dad
happy father’s day
hope hell’s treatin you miserably

got some good news
and some bad news

good news

you were harder
to get rid of
than I thought

bad news

well…
you are harder
to get rid of
than I thought

against my better judgment
i keep findin my way
back to the piano

turns out
a coffin doesn’t have
to be buried

there’s still pieces of you
and let’s be honest
pieces of me too
hidden beneath
strings and keys

weird place
to keep a ghost
i know
but there you are
every time
I lift the lid

I often find myself
playin for your approval
and when I hit the wrong note
suddenly
I’m bracin myself
waitin for your hand

and that
pisses me off
more than it probably should

anyway…
figured you’d be relieved
to hear
your work continues
to pay dividends

and I’ve discovered that
if you scare a child
often enough
he’ll keep doin
the work for you
when he becomes a man

built your masterpiece tho

my nervous system
came out kinda fucked
jumps at loud noises
sleeps like shit
cowers in corners
and spends entirely too much time
arguin with your ghost
or hidin from shadows

so you could
call that a success

figured I’d give it
an honest shot
and tried
your favorite method
to shut it all up

spent a few years
at the bottom
of a bottle
turns out
you can drown lota things
but demons fuckin float

that didn’t quite work out

but don’t worry
I still catch you
lookin back from the mirror

mostly in the eyes

which feels
a little excessive
considerin the rest
of what you left me

hell
you could’ve at least
taken those with you

guess i should really thank you
for givin me
somethin to aspire to
been a fuck up
ever since you decided
that’s what i was

so…
credit where it’s due
you fucked me up
pretty good
i’ll give you that

gonna spend rest of my life
tryin to sort thru
what’s mine
and what belonged
to you

honestly…
I inherited lota your mess
made plenty of my own
but no matter how many times
I’ve let my kids down
they never flinch
when I enter the room

guess that’s one thing
I didn’t inherit
figured that part
you really oughta know

with the utmost disrespect
Dru