Dont waste your life………

There will be extreme difficulties, 

dont lose your heart and suffer feeling sorrow

because you will never get anything if you feel sorrow

it will degrade your abilities that you cant achieve anything

Dont sleep with sadness

if you feel you are fine and go ahead,

you will get what you aimed for

Depression sorrow and cry are the only means

of letting your emotions

if you make them as your strength and stand arise,

you will achieve more than what you thought about

if you dont have job, then you get one when you try

if you dont have money, then you will earn

if you dont have your family, then you will be with your family

Stop hurtign your own heart, that you are not in good position

there are so many with what they have as minimum are achieving 

more and living in better conditions

Have you watched people build hut on footpath shoulder

they dont cry and think why we are suffering, they just do something 

and earn money, and cook their food, sleep in their hut.

Seeing smiling faces of my son, and my husband i make my day, 

my son asks once in a while to buy him something

now he is understanding so much that he is not asking anything to buy for him

my husband also asks a little money which i can give him

I spend for my parents how much i can

I am doing job that can give my expenses, i still feel

who will spend for me, so i am saving money, 

it will help me in my sickness for treatment in oldage

I feel job is not enough, i need to do something which 

i can do where i get little more money, in my old age

i am learning few skills that can help me in my retirement

Seeing my mom, i see for her we are spending so much money, 

who will help me when i am sick, i need to earn even to take care of me

Old age is tough when you dont have anyone beside you to take care of you,

i thought i should have a kid i raise him to be with me, I know i have my son, 

but he cant come to india, and i cant go to USA, if i have my kid who is an orphan, 

i can raise him and he will be with me, he will take care of me in my oldage,

my mother goddess wished me second kid, i hope i will have my kid. 

In my place i saw a women who is widow, running, grinding machines which make flour

she is living by herself and earning her livelihood by herself working, It was a inspiration, 

My parents raised 4 kids, we all are taking care of them, 

having kids helps you in oldage, 

having money helps in oldage when you are sick

having skills you can sit and earn by working

If i see what skills will help me in my oldage

1. Tailoring/fashion designing – i can make cutting of clothing and let other stitch, different garments i can make them cut.
2. Nutrition – With taking clients i can suggest diet, i am finished Gynaecology nutrition, learning thyroid, holistic health.
3. Nail Art  – i can take the clients and it is very easy to do 
4. LLB – I can work as corporate lawyer, or have my own practice
5. Water treatment – I am learning designing the treatment methods, i can do my own startup and also work for others
6. Last option which i am thinking is opening a small restaurant
7. i can have chilli, turmeric, pulverizers and make the powders.
8. open a grocery shop,
9. open a general store,
10. open copy machine with prints, and scanning.

These options will make me earn my bread.

I know my son will take care of me what if his wife doesnt want him to spend for me, and living in USA is very costly, so i will stay here in india, and make my own living. 

I am confident if i keep busy myself doing something, with one job i cant sit alone, now i can do better than next 10 years, so i dont waste my time in sitting and enjoying, 

my father-in-law till his last breath he worked for his company, and he didnt sit idle and he did so much that his kids are enjoying his money. 

I have written this to make others who are in my situation to inspire them in their tough times. 

Time is important, when you have time, money is important and health is very important, so you live without being burden to others. And also to let my husband know where he thinks i am doing so much work, i just convey if i sit and eat, what i earn i finish without saving for tomorrow. Please understand you have so much money but for me i dont have money, i earn for month and finishing it off giving to my family. I need to do hardwork.

Jessy Jacob.