I see i am cursed

Life cursed me 

I see in next three years i hit half century 

My son turning to major who can vote.

My love life turned to married life

Life cursed me with blame and suffering 

My mom cursed me that in India they say that I left my husband as a bad remark making look like lust or in need of sex with other person 

Yesterday my dad hit me with broom that i am a bitch that left her husband.

I divorced my husband but for my personal reason to make my man make him live

My parents neither siblings never asked why I took divorce 

Atleast my mom would have asked me what made me to take divorce 

As means of sharing my pain but my mom blamed me and insulted me that I needed more men.

Everyone knows what i went through in my life 

Now people know how i am suffering 

In my old age i seek my husband 

But my husband did and doing everything to make me safe

When my dad is gone i will be left alone 

How many skills i have i think working as servant I can be peaceful without anyone playing politics to remove me. 

I learned skills but every where i see again same people hurting me 

I studied but what if that degrees and experience are not feeding me. 

Degree and jobs gave me good money but every company i am seeing recession no projects and unable to bear me 

A general Store is good one too. My dad will not allow me to do this.

He just says i will feed you till i am with my pension 

I have my son but I don’t want to be burden to him where he is thinking i am not with him.

Life in USA is costly you should have good job else odd jobs you can’t survive.

My husband is busy with his own problems and family.

Whom should I see because I am turning 50 yrs i am missing my son and my husband made me to stay with my. Dad. In this way i am away from my family and living with parents.

I don’t know whether my husband will see my dead body for the last time 

I don’t know whether my son attend my funeral.

I wish I want to see my son settled with job and wedding. And my husband shine in his business.

I never missed anything the poor and rich life. God showed me every shade at my 50 yrs age to go 

I love my husband alot 

I am the only one lady who is married but couldn’t even get a shake hand or hug from my husband.   

Our love grew with intimacy that made us lovers made for each other.

I don’t have writing skills but i write my story narration.

We loved we married and we die together.

If anyone doesn’t like me or my husband please don’t curse us we are just flower and bee kissing each other.

Jessy Jacob ❤️