the weight of it
pulls me under
like the earth is tryin
to swallow me whole
lungs burnin
screamin inside
but not makin a sound
it all stays trapped
while i stare at the light
twistin in the sky
breakin into pieces
shatterin across the water
one hand in the pool
fingers just under the surface
cool
slick
the water ripples round me
feels like it’s pullin me in
the weight of it pushin up
against my skin
while my foot
grazes the edge
the water lappin in waves from the wind
pullin and tuggin
like it wants to carry me away
but the heat from the concrete
keeps me locked in place
battle between cold and burn
the water soft against my skin
but it feels heavier
with every second
like it’s tryin to drown me in calm
and the sky
it presses against my eyes
like it’s too big
too fuckin close
like it’s foldin in on itself
fillin my vision
til it’s all i see
the weight of it
holdin me down
and i can’t escape
not even into the water’s pull
i wish i could be better
wish i could escape this tug o war
but it’s all like liquid light
pourin in
fillin my eyes
til they burn
swirlin with hues i can’t name
shovin me down
floodin my vision
like a force that just
won’t let go
a hand grippin my face
squeezin tighter
til i can’t breathe
and all i see is failure
soaked in every fuckin shade of blue
This takes me back to Phoenix & a night pressing down on me alone by the pool. One of those feelings you can’t escape
Powerfully penned, Ambjr. Felt this one my friend, phenomenal write. Appreciate you.
Damian