sadness wells then it quells
an intense feeling astounds me
so big a feeling I can barely contain it
it tugs at my heart late at night
a reel to reel of faces in my private theater
tears escape my eyes
a confession I grow cold when I should draw near
haunting truth why can’t I show affection
the kind that sustains
my emptiness fills
sensations of sorrow overwhelm
can you see me now I can’t stop crying
my facade fades I wanted to be strong for you
my soul says I should have cried with you
when you tried to tell me you were dying
you were saying goodbye and I wouldn’t hear it
now left with shadows and memories, I miss you
when you were losing your grip with life I was losing mine too
coming close to death I couldn’t be by your side
I’m afraid I gave you MRSA
either way you passed and I didn’t
my son say your prayers to heaven for us here left in silence
the air has shattered and I scream in defiance
my heart breaks and it’s enough
Powerfully penned, Brenda. Loss is tough my friend, a very heartfelt write. Grief is sometimes like pacing in circles wondering if one did enough, and praying that our beloved know how much they were loved. Prayers and positive energy sent your way, thanks for sharing something so private. Appreciate you.
Damian
hello dearest Damian thank you my friend I don’t why but I struggled with the reply all of you being so tender hearted thank you dear soul ❤️
Brenda this piece was just lovely.
Your sadness is palpable in the words and the spaces between them.
Sometimes I wonder what the point of life is…..I haven’t come up with an answer yet.
🙏🙏🙏🙏💋
hello dearest Benny he was so full of life in such a hurry even as a child to greet the world I actually tried to keep him home with me but he had a spirit of adventure thank you my friend ❤️
This is incredibly sad! Your honest, very well expressed self-reflections strike right at the heart of your readers. I can feel the ink bleeding from your heart! A big heart felt hug of love and positives energy! 🫂🙏
hello beautiful Elke thank you for feeling me so deeply on this thank you dear soul ❤️
Thank You for being his Mom🤍 He chose You to be His Mom🤍. I can’t imagine the pain of losing a child… it’s for sure unbearable, it is, the only comfort is to remember that his soul is near, He is near, if You can’t see him it doesn’t mean that it is not true. You are strong to express your pain sincerely like this, but please please please… Don’t dwell in gulit, it’s not your fault or his, as I’ve said in my first sentences. HE chose You to be his Mom and Thank You for being his 🤍 always remember this, always and ever!
Sending You warm hugs strong beautiful Mother💓
hello lovely light your comment made me cry I wonder if he chose because he thought he could help he was so enigmatic such a force I love your thoughts and I miss him very much thank you kind soul ❤️
The reason why He chose You and You chose him maybe a mystery till now, but it doesn’t matter, let it be and come clear if it will ever be. I’m really sorry for your loss, may His soul be near You surrounding You with comfort, warmth and solace 🙏🏻
I can’t add to that which has already been written. Death is just borrowing him for a moment. Your heart will probably never mend, but will pulse strong in your memories.
hello dearest Rob yes it was all too short from the time he was born untill he died I hope he knows how much I miss him thank you dear friend ❤️