guilt by association
I'm schizophrenic
of course the best of men would clamor for my attention
my life has always been hard because of my delusions
rough looks from not taking care of my body
hinder the way it hurts
when people look at me
seeing only my exterior and judging
my face is scarred from bad acne at nine years
my body out of shape from c section and psych meds
again people give me looks
like I'm from another planet
seduce the curse I try to look like everyone else
really I don't know what I'm talking about
the bad treatment started when I was small
did it already show, I don't know I was a pretty child
still the upperclass treated me like shit
though I was highly intelligent
and could navigate any prodding conversation
my mind would see through them
not to mention I could never hide my disdain
my lip curls when I'm disgusted
still I'm strangely beautiful, I attract all ages of men
seducing them somehow even with my oddity
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insanity, body image
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Powerfully penned, Brenda. Another amazing write my friend. Appreciate you.
Damian
hello dearest Damian thank you graciously I appreciate the love on this isn’t one an easy write to write but it was on my mind 💕💕
Brenda this is quite beautiful.
The world talks about being different and individual but when you are they detest you.
Don’t bother about the world.Its a delusion mostly and is finite.
In the meantime, use your saphosexuality to seduce as many men as you like.
You’ve done it to me more than once with your writing….😜
good morning dearest Benny thank you graciously you made me smile today 💕
We wear our life upon our looks. Some more obvious than others.
Chances are, we fall in love with someone after we have seen them physically and got beyond that, and into their psyche.
Confidence is the most attractive trait. Not arrogance or cockiness, but a quiet confidence that others will notice, and respect.
That is not looks. It’s a look within the eyes.
You’ll always be okay, if you believe in it.
hello dearest Stxian I was just recently in a situation to be surrounded by the upperclass again and I am reminded as I was when I was a child I didn’t fit with their perfect looks and pampered existence anyone could look good if there every whim was met and they didn’t have worry lines say about where there rent is coming from sometimes life throws so muvh at you your toenails not being perfectly manicured goes to the wayside thank you for such a lovely comment 💕
Hoi hoi
The last two sentences are the cherry on the cake.
Could it be that there’s a portion of people who take/love you for what you are?
Don’t know if I’m right, but I love to think I am.
Yes, definitely.
Love your write…
Kind regards, Gus
hello dearest Gus good morning there are those people who love me knowing me I was just around a bunch of assholes who care if you have money and it shows…thank you for the love here 💕
I will never understand the obsession with “conventional” beauty. The models in magazines are airbrushed & one dimensional. You have depth, intelligence & spirit, Brenda. Those qualities glow, believe me 🧡
hello beautiful Willow this was more of a critical look at where I am socially I guess it never it occurs to people it isn’t from stupidity it is because of my bad mental health so much of who I am doesn’t line up with conventional and upperclass standards thank you my dear friend for the love here 💕💕
any fools with eyes can see the surface. but it’s the ones who actually look and can see its the weight you carried before that makes you unforgettable. excellent write.
hello dearest poet I get weary for being judged for how I appear not my intelligence I have worry lines on my face worrying how I’m going to make it… I am schizo and it relegates me to poverty it was bad life choices it was my mental health that has made life so difficult for me thank you for the love here 💕