deeper than want

you stayed
right where I needed you
pinned beneath me
dark eyes wide
like you’d just seen god
or somethin uglier

you looked perfect like that
not delicate
but dangerous
in all the right ways
not soft
but sharp
enough to draw blood
just from lookin up at me like that

caught somewhere
between prayer and ruin
with your hands reachin
for somethin beyond my skin
for somethin holy
in the filth of me

and maybe I should’ve felt ashamed
for the way my mouth
hovered at your throat
for the way my hand
settled on your thigh
makin sure you remembered
exactly where you were

the scent of smoke
still lingerin on my skin
sweat mixin with your breath
thick between us
every inhale tasted like want
like we’d been caught in the middle
of somethin we weren’t meant to survive
and didn’t care if we did

but you didn’t flinch
you arched into it
welcomed the weight
invited the sin
your hips lifted
like you needed more
of the ache
like you were beggin
without sayin a word

my name
or some broken version of it
caught in your throat
then fell from your lips
as I sunk deeper
into the space of you

your skin burned
where mine drug across it
makin me want to leave marks
not just bruises
memories
ownership
truth

then you made this noise
the kinda sound
that rewires a person
reaches inside of them
and tears somethin loose
so I pushed in again
harder this time
claimed it all
took it
devoured it

maybe I’m a monster
but you…
you didn’t just let me in
you dared me
you opened your mouth
and fed me your surrender

and there was
no rush to escape
only the rise of your hips
and a look in those eyes
that begged me
not to stop