Me & My Darkside

ME:

I used to be so happy, 

where’d that person go?

Now every time I look in the mirror,

 it’s someone I don’t know

I hate myself, I’m not the same,

 the light in me is gone

I’m crying every single day 

but I’m trying to be strong

MY DARKSIDE: 

“You’re a whiny little bitch,

 your pity parties aren’t that fun

You’ve been crying for a while now,

 are you almost done?

You say you hate yourself and yet,

 look at that, you’re here

You’ve gotten up out of bed for the last five years

Don’t you want your power back?

 Don’t you want revenge?

That bastard needs it

ME: 

Yes I do but I was hoping he would change 

MY DARKSIDE:

Baby he ain’t changing he’ll never change 

But You can’t prove that fucker wrong 

if you keep beating yourself down again and again. 

Now I say this as a friend,

 I say it ’cause I know who you are

I’ve been here from the beginning 

but I’ve been waiting in the dark.

I am the voice inside you

 that knows exactly what you’re worth

I’m that ‘fuck off bitch’ energy 

that you need to put first

I’m the line drawn in the sand and 

the boundaries you need to set.

I’m the demons you’ll unleash 

and the dreams you’ll manifest

Aren’t you sick of always being last?

 You have no discipline

You say that it’s your illness, 

that’s an excuse, my friend

You know all your symptoms and

 you have the tools to fight them,

And when someone tries to fuck with you, 

you have every right to bite them.

Break the chains, take off your muzzle, 

stop being so damn nice

You please every-fucking-body but yourself, 

you know that right?

You let every person that you’ve ever known just suck you dry

And yet you wonder why you always feel so empty inside”

ME:

But no, it’s not my fault, I was raised to be kind.

MY DARKSIDE:

“It’s not your job to be everybody’s ray of sunshine”

ME:

But if I’m not nice, they’ll leave.

MY DARKSIDE:

“Let them”

ME:

I need them.

MY DARKSIDE:

“No, you don’t

They think that you’re just not digestible, 

so let them fucking choke”

ME:

I just can’t be that person.

MY DARKSIDE:

“Why? Just be like this

It’s not the end of the fucking world 

if they think you’re a bitch”

ME:

Stop it.

MY DARKSIDE:

“Why? You know I’m right,

 you know that’s why I’m here

You’re done with all their shit 

and this is your fucking year.

MY DARKSIDE :

Babe, I’m here to help you, 

come on, just let me out

I was sent here from Hekate

 and I need to see this through

Imagine everything that you and I will get to do

I’m done watching you cry,

 I’m done watching you scroll

Every tear feels like a drop of acid burning through my soul”

ME:

I’m sorry

MY DARKSIDE:

No! enough with these sorrys they mean nothing 

This bastard treats you like garbage 

He doesn’t care or respect you 

But you still stay with him

You even ruined your relationship with your brother 

He put his freedom and future on the fucking line for you 

Trying to stand up for you and help you 

And you let him down 

You lost his trust 

Your loyalty means nothing to him

Only because you did nothing and you gave him your word 

And because you did nothing 

you lost another brother.

ME:

No I didn’t mean to let him down 

I wanted to go

MY DARKSIDE:

Then why didn’t you go when you had the chance?

ME:

I don’t know 

I thought I could do it

I thought I had the strength to go 

I wanted to go so bad but for some reason I couldn’t go

 I thought wrong 

MY DARKSIDE:

Well now you have to do the work 

You have to show them your fucking serious

Because one day your gonna snap

And then what?

Listen carefully 

“I’ve watched you on the ledge,

 I pulled you back every time

I was the only one there for you along with your brother 

when those assholes crossed the line

I was the scream that saved your life, 

I was the voice you found years later.

I’m the home you fucking built so you could feel a little safer

So I can’t just sit and watch while you carve up your thighs

I can’t just give up on you, 

I won’t let you fucking die

I won’t let you fucking die.

MY DARKSIDE:

So what’s it gonna be?”

ME:

Okay

MY DARKSIDE:

“Excuse me, I can’t fucking hear you, what’s it gonna be?”

ME:

I said okay, you fucking bitch

MY DARKSIDE:

“That’s better, now get up off your knees

And tell the world and that bastard you call a man 

that they can fuck them itselves ’cause it’s just you and me”

Then just maybe we can get your brothers back 

And see your kids again. 

~~~🎵SONG LYRICS🎶~~~

1. DARK ALTERNATIVE HIP-HOP / SPOKEN WORD RAP 

(Psychological, cinematic, aggressive, emotionally raw)

“ME & MY DARKSIDE”

 SPOKEN INTRO — ME 

I swear…

I don’t even recognize myself anymore.

Every version of me that tried to survive

ended up bleeding into another version I had to bury.

And somewhere in all that noise…

something started talking back.

VERSE 1 — ME 

I used to smile without forcing my face,

Now every mirror feel like a courtroom case.

I’m exhausted, emotionally chained,

Got pain in my chest and revenge in my veins.

I keep replaying every word he said,

Every cold-ass night curled up in bed.

Everybody takes pieces, nobody stays,

Now I’m walking through life in a permanent haze.

I keep saying “I’m fine,” but I know that’s fake,

I got cracks in my soul that I cannot tape.

And the saddest part? I still defend

People who’d watch me drown and call it “the end.”

VERSE 2 — MY DARKSIDE 

Oh here we go again, another breakdown speech,

Crying to the ceiling like somebody gon’ reach.

You keep begging for love from people that feed

On your weakness, your guilt, your desperate need.

You built shrines outta people who ruined your peace,

Then you wonder why your nightmares never cease.

You say you’re kind — nah, you’re terrified.

You confuse being needed with being alive.

I was born every time they crossed that line,

Every swallowed scream, every fake-ass smile.

I’m the spine you lost trying to please the crowd,

I’m the voice in your chest getting louder now.

CHORUS — BOTH 

ME:

I don’t know who I am anymore…

I’m losing myself in this war…

MY DARKSIDE:

Then let me out, let me breathe,

I’m the part of you that still got teeth.

ME:

What if I become someone cold?

MY DARKSIDE:

No — just someone they can’t control.

VERSE 3 — ME  

I stayed too long, I know that now,

Held dead flowers and still took vows.

I kept choosing people over myself,

Then blamed my pain on mental health.

Maybe I got too used to pain,

Too used to standing in the rain.

Maybe healing scared me more

Than all the shit I cried for before.

VERSE 4 — MY DARKSIDE 

Listen carefully — this your resurrection.

Pain gave birth to a weapon.

Every scar on your body a lesson,

Every tear was sharpening tension.

That man don’t love you, he loves control,

And every time you crawl back, you sell your soul.

Your brother saw it, that’s why he fought,

But fear kept your feet tied up in knots.

Now stand the fuck up.

Enough surviving.

Enough shrinking.

Enough hiding.

You want your kids back?

Then rebuild your name.

You want your brothers back?

Then become worth trusting again.

BRIDGE — BOTH 

ME:

What if I fail?

MY DARKSIDE:

Then fail standing up.

ME:

What if I break?

MY DARKSIDE:

Then break becoming something dangerous.

ME:

What if nobody stays?

MY DARKSIDE:

Then finally you’ll know who actually loves you.

CLOSING CHORUS — BOTH 

ME:

I spent years begging not to be abandoned…

MY DARKSIDE:

And abandoned yourself in the process.

ME:

But I hear it now… louder than fear…

MY DARKSIDE:

This is your fucking year.

SPOKEN OUTRO — MY DARKSIDE 

No more apologies.

No more crawling back.

No more confusing suffering with love.

You survived everything that tried to destroy you.

Now survive yourself.

Now Get the fuck up.

We’re not dying here.

Hellooo…

You hear me 

I said we’re not dying here