I keep searching for him
In strangers that aren’t
I seek his essence through them
But its difficult to find someone
That can wield their words
Like a seductive weapon
How i yearn to meet another
I hate him with all my being
And despise this craving
For the cadence of his voice
How it inflicts such desire
To taste him just once
He showed me hedonism
And I’m denied it forevermore









Lovely and the conflicting feelings are relatable.