God said i will give 5 elements
Bhu vahni vayu gagnabhu vinirmithena
and also said he will not give me intelligence
and he will not guide too
I need to use my bhudhi
I need to use my body
I need to align my chakras
that generate energy
So i took this promise
where my son was with me
and my husband had to carry two thoughts
one is good and another is a thief
i was told jump in these endless thoughts and that
hurt your brain without my control
my patience and my sacrifice were that i may return with my health back
God said now you lost your son,
you need to walk alone
My siblings are with my son
my parents take care of my life
God said you cant see me
and he gave me another task
he tested i will sit and rub my legs eat my parents hard work
i told i am not that bad where i enjoy loss of my husband and my son
so i went to Iraq, so i get paid well and see my son
Again God tested my patience
this time i will give your husband but invisible he is with you
I thought i got my husband
so i can live
Again God thought you are so happy
i need to test again, said
i want your life, it means he wants me to die
I said ok God, if you really want to kill me
you can kill, but i cant live without my son and my husband
then God was thinking
I gave everything why you are not
happy, and still need family
I said i am not alone
I am made up of heart that is made up of my husband and my son.
I confessed with God
if you are testing my patience for what
Did you want to make me a weapon that can kill Kali(demon) the evil behavior,
God said yes,
I made you so vulnerable that you will not lose your family
I made you so powerful that you can face any deadly organism
I made you so with love that any human could hate you
Yes i made you a terminator of that fire that fire that couldnt kill you
I made you look beautiful that old age couldnt wipe of your charming smile
I made you so sharp like a sword that can cut the throat of evil thoughts that is killing people
who are taking advantage.
You are inseparable soul from me dear wife,
I am your husband there is notany sindhoor that can fill your forehead like the rising sun
I am your husband there is notany sindhoor that can fill your forehead like the rising sun
I am with you and i was doing all the sacrifices along with you
you are my lovely wife and i have my proud son.
We are together in sorrow and happiness.
Jessy Jacob.
