today grew heavy
like the snow blowing
outside my window
emotions once
stitched tightly
into your special chamber
of my heart
rose up
drifting like the flakes
that keep falling
my own season of pain
i shovel at the drifts
try to pack them down
a snowball of ache
straining to breathe
outside its icy chamber
shimmering like diamonds now
the years of pressure
of swallowing your loss
have turned the coal
of your soul
into a sparking stone
forever carried
in your special pocket
my baby
you will always be
the one I hold
inside myself
the one
I never got
to touch







