tell me i’m nothin
a mess stitched from bruises
a walkin disaster
that drags the world down
every step a fracture
every breath a crack
tell me i deserve
all of the shit
that’s rained on me
since the beginnin
like hail against skin
like fists pressed
collidin with a face
that never fights back
tell me i’m a coward
that i run
and hide
from the mirror
from the echo of myself
how could I not be afraid
of a reflection
that bares teeth at me
and tell me that reflection
is a joke
a mirror that’s tired
to show the wreckage
I drag behind me
the fear I can’t outrun
the shame I cradle
like it’s a child
I could never save
I’ll drop to my knees
beggin
forehead pressed
to the cold floor
please don’t stop
tell me I’m nothin
tell me I’m a fuck up
tell me i’m a drunk
a liar
a cheater
a waste of space
a burden
useless
unlovable
hit me with it
don’t hold back
tell me I fuck everythin I touch
that I’m goin to end alone
that death will find me forgotten
not b/c I disappeared
but b/c I shattered it all
so many times
no one even looks anymore
tell me I’m the product
of damaged genes
every heartbeat a crime
every thought a scar
tell me the world would sigh in relief
if I’d never been here
that the universe
will finally forgive itself
the moment I stop existin
i’ll stay here
on my knees
mouth dry
teeth grindin
hands tremblin
askin for the punishment
the absolution
the truth
that I am exactly
what I fear
a monster born of monsters
and worse
that the echoes of me
will haunt
til no one dares
to call me human
I felt my heart stutter on this one. Felt the pain
hello dearest poet this is felt deeply but you are not a monster monsters don’t feel that much ❤️
Tremendous work.