Every kiss
An unfamiliar place sits
Sinking in my heart of abyss
Just how long will it be this?
What does “love” mean
Boiling floods
Floating mudslides
Bone breaking hugs
Ghosts trapped in breaths
A reason to stay alive
A reason I don’t want
What does it mean to “stay”
When I’m killing part of me
To love anything
No belonging
Can my blood rust and erode
These chains growing heavier
The smell sweet and sickening
It’s scares me
How much I love torture








The questioning and answering, then the admission at the end made this a good piece to read.