defamed and prostituded for my respectability
schizo dreams still desires the norm
when close, is all you will ever have
and just for that you have to fight
we are throw away people
everyone turned their backs on me as a child
too difficult to deal with
no one helped to get me mental health help
no one warned me parenting was probably out of my grasp
romantic feeling for a normal man
cos I'll be honest one like me is enough
so I avoided other mentally ill
I'm relegated to poverty without even enough for rent, so I'm beholden
and I've been in a halfway house where people steal from you
while the staff starves you
so you take less than, in relationships
choose the best out of what will never suit my pride
terribly intelligent but I get lost in my mind sometmes
there is no way I could live alone
my looks and weight are harmed by psych drugs
with the need to fit I take them
if I don't take the pills society will reject me
only problem is they don't always work
with no one lining up to stand by me
weighing the options I took the better of two evils
in the end I found love, but I discovered how fickle it can be
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Powerfully penned, Brenda. Excellent write that cuts with it’s honesty my friend. Another amazing read. Appreciate you.
Damian
thank you dearest Damian thank you graciously ❤️
Chère C.,
In a tent, I don’t always have connection with the internet, but I’ll always catch up what you’ve written.
Looks like the English expression is ‘stand by me’. If that is so, I think the Dutch version is more powerful.
It’s: achter iemand staan. Stand behind somebody/you.
So we’re your back up. If you fall we’ll catch you. And we will.
Because you’re OK. And you matter.
Don’t worry too much please.
Warm regards, Gus