As the dusk is settling in
Darkness consumes the light
Alone in my own thoughts
In the silence of the night
Reliving all my memories
And the reflections of the day
In my mind’s mirror
All the things I wanted to say
Why did I argue with her
Why didn’t I let her leave
Why did I smother her
Or give her a chance to breathe
Rays of hope are beautiful
A new day has begun
Optimism is ushered in
With the warmth of the rising sun
A chance for my pain to heal
Time is the greatest suture
Hope is the inspiration
That guides me in the future
It’s a breath of fresh air
I seek for eternal forgiveness
But as night settles in again
I realized what I witnessed
Another day of mistakes
Slowly I’m getting closer
This emptiness still exists
More questions without closure
My hands are covered in guilt
The burden on my shoulders
The secrets that I bear
The weight of a 1,000 boulders
Deaths that have already happened
And those that are yet to come
Even hope won’t erase eventuality
Waiting for death is time undone
Regret is a heavy burden. You expressed your plight well, my friend.
Death of relationships, death of the heart, death of hope & promise, those are temporary even though they feel permanent. Holding you in thought.
I can say time will lesson this and it does but the mind recall is just as disheartening. You will get over this and if there is a lesson to be learned from it you will find it. Beautifully expressed.
Thank you both for expressing kind words and thoughts..and taking time to comment..I appreciate it..hope all is well