I can’t say exactly when
but it was somewhere between
walkin thru the door
and kickin my chucks
across the floor
that the world
started to tilt on me
kitchen light buzzin overhead
pulse draggin
against my throat
mind reelin
thoughts formin
into a great revelation
or maybe
an awful little realization
that I have been alive
this whole fuckin time
stumblin thru it all
room to room
pretendin to understand
any of this
without knowin
what the fuck to do with it
there isn’t even a mess
everythin’s exactly
in its place
nothin to point at
no place to put the blame
just me
suddenly aware
of every breath
movin thru my body
and I’m standin there
keys diggin into my palm
while my other hand
holds me propped up
against the counter
cursin myself
tryin to pull it together
while the light keeps buzzin
its one stupid little note







