Torn
It’s hard to turn away
Even the thought takes effort
Knowing that this..,
This thing between you and I
Well has no real end
There was a beginning
Way back when…

I should leave
I am the embodiment of the word toxic
I know my faults
My shortcomings
I know that…
Still, I cannot leave

This thing is like a bungie cord
I drop to get as far away from you
Before I hit the ground
I’m pulled back so strongly
I feel a rib break
Sorry, I was mistaken
The feeling was my heart

I need…
I should…
Tear away the band aid
Just leave!
I scream in my head
But your arms hold me in place
Your place

Our space where the wound that I caused
You forgave
I didn’t…
I won’t…
I just can’t.