Yes. This struggle is internal, not external. Christianity as a kind of perversion of Gnosticism, I've encountered this concept more times than I can count ever since I put my tin foil hat on. There is a flavor of that here (Christ as a "spark"....the divine spark) and that...

Ah, I often loathe the social performances we are forced to partake in. Society demands it. If they only knew what was really buzzin around in there, they'd be mortally mystified. Feelings might get hurt. Expectations may not be realized. The curse of being real. Powerful & raw, like...

You are right...it's all a mental game. I've often wondered where thoughts come from...which nothing but the something in your head. The mind is literally an alchemical tool, which turns nothing into something. For good or ill or something in-between. Masterfully worded gold, Mr. C

I can't even comprehend a loss this magnitude. All I can offer is the humble hope that you will find at least a modicum of peace in the writing.

A long, long time, indeed. Past, present, future are All-In-One and One-In-All. You have to wonder why certain entities would want us wiped out or greatly diminished when we are their primary food source. We are the chattel they feed on but they would be nothing without us. It's...