blend
secreting my blues infused with fire within my sacredness
With tears unwept and sadness misunderstood, my soul yearns
Inside the eternal storm, I seek sanctuary
Lying my bones in the sun, white from sunlight
My thoughts sharpen them
sewing dreams out of feelings
where I interpret them later
So much grief within my hollow spaces
It leaves me off balance
Loneliness comforts me
empty of thought, I am an outcast
stricken with great anxieties
Sigh, to connect with humanity, I try
But so often I am too needy
Or I am too intense
It makes people shy
And I withdraw feeling odd
Lately, the spirits have quieted
With thoughts of why, I’m told I am to interact as a mortal
So my days have been ones of silence of late
With only the briefest of reminders from my Father
Who has pulled back to observe how I do
With my apologies, I tell him I’m not doing very well
caress the duress and make it speak
The tears are long overdue
Storm clouds are brewing,
I fear it will be a downpour
a flood of emotions mixing with my hurt
imploring my greatest companion to come back to me
My faith says I don’t blend
