part one:
All addictions start with suffering.
All addictions end with suffering.
part two:
Addiction begins
where silence screams.
Voids filled with
the cold retreat of alcohol,
tobacco’s dry whisper,
the sharp thrill of cocaine,
gambling’s pulse,
screens pulsing past midnight,
the slow hunger for shopping,
the aching need for moisture
from a pussy,
from a cock,
the dark grip of porn’s flicker,
desire’s endless gnawing,
trauma consumed by
abusing ourselves further.
We try to forget
but only remember deeper,
the suffering returns
relentless
and we circle
its quiet, terrible heart.
Part three:
Addiction takes us from emptiness
and returns us there but only after we have progressed from.
One drink a day to five bottles a day.
One shopping excursion to never leaving the mall.
Marijuana to fentanyl.
Packing one cock off as another one enters.
Moving from fingers,to hands,to butt plugs,ropes, three-ways, bukkake and regret,remorse and self loathing.
part four:
And we’ll do it again
over and over
until we learn
we can’t ‘out anything’ our trauma.
part five:
We try to forget so we can remember what we are……who we are.
hello dearest Benny my pain is just too great to live any other way I’ve really honestly tried more than once and I will never willingly put myself through that again… this is powerful if you have a better way to cope I am happy for you my friend ❤️
The root cause of all suffering is thinking.That’s where the answer lies.
I coped by reading as much as I could about depression, grief,the way our minds work and trick is.The best material,without sounding religious,was in Buddhism.
Happy to share some authors with you if you’re interested.
🙏🙏🙏🙏
Intelligent poem here dude. Well said and well executed.
Brilliant work.