lingers the sadness and I wonder when it will end
the blueness of feeling overwhelms
my soul tries to conceal the grief
but it is emerging in my day and in my writing
in the form of depression
my days are altered and I know my loved one wouldn't wish it
each day flowing into the next unmarked and uncelebrated
my life has taken a pause
with relentless pain causing me to ache
until I can't stand my own company
telling myself to just get over it
my eyes brim with tears and overflow at the slightest things that trigger
it doesn't matter where I am
storm clouds threaten and I can feel the conflict within
please forgive my sorry state
I don't mean to complain
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apology for sadness I can't control...
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Complain. Stand in the rain. Weep tears until you have none left but the ragged breath in your throat.
There is no right way to grieve, and no time allotted for it. Think not that your loved one wouldn’t want you to, but think rather that they would want something for you: to be kind to yourself, even if that kindness means giving yourself the understanding to not be okay, for however long it takes.
You are doing nothing wrong. I’m sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing.
hello dearest Will thank you for the good advise I want to get past this feeling in my life and in my writing…sometimes I think I here my son asking me ma, what are you doing when I am unkind to myself…still I am grateful I had time with my son to be close to him before he died… I deeply appreciate your thoughts 💕
No apologies necessary, girl. This is what writing is for. Your catharsis. Hand over your feelings. The piece is strong and moving.
Meg
hello lovely Meg thank you graciously it is difficult because my feelings seem to confront me when I write there is no hiding from them… I deeply appreciate your understanding and willingness to listen my name is Brenda 💕
Do whatever you need to do to survive…..write,cry,complain,run naked trough the streets if you have to…….just survive.
Take care and you have friends here that care even if from the other side of the earth.
hello Peter good morning thank you for an understanding advise and a comment that made me smile 💕
Powerfully penned, Brenda. No apologies are needed, you grieve as long as you need to my friend. You’re working through your thoughts and emotions, writing is your therapy right now. I’m supportive because I also use my writing as therapy, I think it’s what writers do. Great write my friend. Appreciate you.
Damian
thank you dearest Damian for being so supportive and understanding I appreciate you 💕
I felt this.
hello dearest Adagio thank you my friend 💕