The Heights

Set me free —
I’ve been waiting for you, too.
These nights in the castle                   
You’re too distant.                               
It’s too easy.
I’m afraid to tell you what I’ll allow — what I crave.                                   
We read,
We talk — I sing for you.
I love you, even.
But you’re holding back,
I don’t know why.
My family is gone,
No one is coming for me.
I’m afraid only to tell you —
There’s more to me —
Wildness, wretchedness, and pain without end.
I’m not afraid of the darkness,
From it, together we have everything
To gain.

I’m caged as well, I want to break out,
Eat raw meat, and breathe
In all life has to offer.
Pain has defined me.
The bars are strong on
Your cage and I see your
pain…I want to touch
It, and make it go away.
Fuck it far away,
Mine is as well. Does love even exist?
My childhood was a horror show of
Apathy, money, and privilege;
But no smiles or touch.
Debauchery surrounded me,
People were to be used for our
Base desires.
I will punish us both for being born.

Maybe you want a simple girl
Extravagant dinners and clean laundry
Such things bore me, I’m afraid
You might think me monstrous
All I’ve done is toil away,
Giving myself over to Sisyphean laborers, and
Endless inhuman favors
Surrendered to unfit Masters
Who paid for their titles, treating
I like a commodity to use up,
Beat down, and throw away. I
Indict my male relatives
Who should have protected me,
And beseech God for a remedy
To my loneliness and misery.
My gratitude overwhelms
For this interlude in the castle.
You’ve been good to me so far —
Your care is starting to show, yet
I am electric about a dream I have of
How much further we could go, still
You seem reluctant, what must I do…

I need a monster in that
Bed, but not in my heart.                     
I want to fuck you hard                         
And drive the                                                 
Demons out, ­               
Drowned in the pink.
Pound it dripping home
To the core of the tulips,
To the bottom of the
Swollen rose.
Love is a rotten pig
In the dung heap of life.
I want no part of
It ever again.

I see you looking at me
With a different energy     
It scares me in the exact way                     
I want to be.
The day stretches long,
With an endless banal sun.
I’m molten inside —
Tropical, with inhibitions
Melting down.
You can save me
Right now,
As I kneel in front of you,
I open my mouth, and
Feel the cage
Door opening.

Freedom,
As you take my cock
Into your mouth —
Do you feel the heat, and
The power?

I feel it all at once,
Like a conquistador
But benevolent.
I keep my eyes open,
The world blooms
From simple
To magnificent.
I’m not like
The other maids,
I’m not sure if you knew.
I do everything
Oh so happily
Like it’s forever new. 
Cocksucking being
My favorite feast, so
Please! Pull my hair!
Don’t be gentle!
Make me drink it.

You dirty slut.
I’m taken to new
Heights with this
Different side of you.
My precious darling,
Take all of me, as I fuck
your mouth.
I feel like the Marquis De
Sade seducing the
Chambermaid.
Let me taste
Your juice.
Lie back and
Spread your legs.
Your pussy is divine.
Like ambrosia, your
Swollen clit begs for
My tongue,
Do you feel the edge of
Death as I close my hand
Around your throat?
Cum my sweet angel.
Cum Venus, cum.

I’m relieved
You’re pleased
With my new attitude.
Yet on the edge of release,
A hint of boredom creeps in —
Will it always be this easy
To seduce my Master?
Is it over already? 
I need something darker – more fantastical             
A slight dreariness creeps in                       
As I feel my climax coming, ­ 
But just before it breaks
So does the boredom!
I realize my heart is pounding
I’m struggling to breathe —
You’re choking me!
Holding me down with one arm,
I try to struggle and squeal,
The electricity of fear!
But I’m immobilized, dumbfounded
Kind sir, please!
Not like this!
You said you loved me!
I loathe leaving
That hot mouth on me
But you look up and break your grip,
So I sit up, renounce your deliverance
And flee!

Where have you gone
My dark angel,
My Babylonian imp?
Are you afraid?
It’s just a little death,
So you value                                     
Life more.                                           
I will find you, and when                                         
I do, My cum will swim in your
Veins, it will be your
Food and Oxygen, our
Sex will be your new melody,
The rhythm by which you walk and
Move through life.
Come out, my Nymph,
Come to your new Master.

From my hiding place
I see
A vision of Beauty
Your eyes smiling
Back at me
You see me — Truly. 
You read my mind, even!
How rash my fear!
After all, I desired
The moment is here!
I’m ready, it’s real,
I want to show you what I’m made of
So I step out and bow my head
Revealing my submission
No more mercy – please
Take me and my
Weak knees
Oh! My darling sir!
Take me all the way, please!

I gaze at your tremendous light
And passion. Your heart beats like a
Deer after the chase.
I can smell your musty cunt
From the sex you want
So I signal the chambermaid
And the gardener to
Seize you, ah, and then,
While he forces your legs apart
I tie your wrists over your head
You won’t be escaping again!
You naughty wench!
I have you now!
While he leers hungrily
Up your skirts
I take my knife and slit your dress —
So close to your throat
And down the corset
I signal to the gardener and the
Brute tears it off you
Leaving you bleeding
As his rough hands scratch your flesh
We all look at you trembling,
Flushed, drawn-out, and naked —
That’s when the chambermaid
Pulls a long feather from her apron
And runs it over your eyebrows.
Then, around your mouth, open in fear.
While the Gardener looks at me hopefully.
I nod, so he takes his big dumb hands
And squeezes your Breasts hard
Moaning like a feral dog.
Failing to look at his Master again
He slips his nightshirt off
Leans forward and shoves
A hard cock in your open mouth
Growling “suck on it, you filthy slut!”
With utter, savage delight.
You take the head of it in your mouth
Whimpering, yet sucking it tightly.
He moans louder, thrusting violently,
With sweat from his forehead
Dripping on your face as
You look to me for mercy.
You find none, so he takes the liberty
And fucks your mouth so hard
Writhing his hips, as your poor lips
Begin to bruise, and your throat is sore
The maid gets down
Between your legs and
Licks your swollen clit,
Your hips rise to the
Darting of her tongue.
She slips a finger in
Your tight pussy, so juicy
And fucks it hard and fast
As she sucks your clit.
You lie back, letting yourself
Be taken and consumed.

What have I done?
I’m helpless now!
You’ve gone very much too far!
The fear is as delicious as
That mouth on me —
Yet I’m pinned and immobile.
The Brute’s cock is strangling me,
Even as I begin to revel in the taste
Of his lust, I can’t breathe!
I wanted you, not these brutes!
You stand far off – aloof, and I’m
Crying as I explode
The brute laughs and then
Grunts and moans as he
Let forth his sickening load.
I’m forced to swallow, he won’t get up
Instead, he’s twisting and shoving
His pulsing cock on my tongue,
Barking “drink it, slut!” and laughing
As he drives his climax home.

The ambivalence is driving me
Mad, I can’t stand to watch this brute
Handle you this way, yet there is a
A strange sense of pleasure.
Love is changing me, I see you
As a poor wretch that craves
Love, I also need love,
And this brute didn’t ask permission!
I make my decision quickly.
I pull my rigging knife from
It’s sheath and walk-behind
The filthy bastard, grab his greasy                     
Hair and slice his jugular, as his                               
heart pumps its last beats, blood                                   
Spurts all over your ass and back.
I have finally met my match —
I grab your hair and pull you back to
Meet my raging hard cock.
The wench has made your pussy sloppy wet
And I slap your cunt with my shaft.

So I was right to be afraid! But I know
You love me truly
You’d never hurt me, would you?
The chambermaid runs out, and it’s just
You and me – Fucking wild and free.
Suddenly, you slow yourself
And cradle me so tenderly.
Your face in my hair, you pull me close,
Then everything goes slow.
You hold me for a long moment
But then your energy
Is ferocious all over again —
You thrust into me harder
It hurts me and I cry out —
“I’m yours forever!
Even if I die!”

If you die, my darling, I die as well,
My love for you transcends the sex.
I weep as we come together,
Ecstasy, rapture,
I’ve passed your cervix,
I’m in your soul.
And you are in mine.
I know we should flee,
But I need a few more moments
Inside of you, looking
Into your safe eyes.
The footsteps approach, like
The black horse of destiny.
A wretched voice calls out —
“He’s the one!”

With agony in my heart
I realize it’s too late
You captured my soul while
Death stood at the gate.
Despondent, I release you,
Desperate, I rise.
Naked and bloody,
My Glory shining through
“Gentlemen!” I cry, with anguish in my voice
“I lit the flame myself!
I carried the brutal torch!
I kneeled before my Beloved
To worship his throbbing cock
You mustn’t judge me, sirs!
A simple maid I am not!
I stirred him to untamed lust
Gave in to delicious
Humiliation — splayed out for
The household to see
My unbridled flirtations,
We played with death!
I led him on!
I wanted Love more than Life!
If you must hang him,
Hang me as well
For Death must need a Wife!

She knows not what she says.
We are drunk on love.
I did the crime, a brute kills a brute.
Nothing more. I’m your man, take me,
And leave my poor angel alone.
I would die for her,
But I’d rather live,
So here is your chance to
Holster your weapons and go
Home to your families.
No, you say?
Then I shall send you
To hell.
Join all the rest of the brutes
Gentlemen, and
Join me as well.

The man rushes the authorities,
And a shot rings out.
His new heart is fatally
Shattered this time,
He drops with a thud to the floor.
She wails and runs to him.
She kneels and clutches him to
Her breast, weeping,
You can’t die,
I love you,
She whispers.
I love you too, my angel,
Now go and love some more.
These are his last words, and a
Smile lies dead on his
Pallid face.

She screams at the apathetic soldiers,
You took my soul and my life!
It is you who deserves to die!
And now — this very night!
The breath is leaving my body,
I long for obliteration
Life is now impossible
An ugly abomination
I cannot bear his last words,
Go and love some more, he said!
Ah, but my passion has turned murderous
Now that Love itself lies dead!
Reaching out one last time
It appears, for her lover’s hand
She quickly took the knife from him
Turned and charged the men.
Her glorious warrior’s cry, and
Her unashamed nakedness,
Aroused anger in the soldiers
With their predictable expectations
In the final climax, their guns convulsed,
Delivering her with a volley of bullets
Into her waiting lover’s arms,
Their blood flows together
In rich, loving rivulets 
Of passionate, dark red
Flowing together, briefly
Warming the concrete floor.