This morning,
after already turning on the shower,
I suddenly knew
it was now or never.
I wrapped a towel around myself,
stood over my computer,
and with a click of my mouse
I unfriended him.
After almost twenty years.
Twenty years of being treated like a side dish
he infrequently craved
Twenty off and on years
of his tossing hope to me
and gleefully reeling it back in
Twenty years of his answering my messages
only if he deigned them interesting enough
Twenty years of alluring invitations
and frequent, unapologetic cancellations
Twenty years of my mindless masochism
and his stultifying sadism
This morning, I blinked him out of my life
by unfriending him.
But I think what I really did
is finally
finally
friend myself.
This is a strong piece of work. To friend yourself…. You have to do what you you you want…. Not what he she they want … YOU
Thank you, Sam., I’ve been on this earth for a while and the big lessons are finally kicking in.
Twenty years is a feat of patience and forgiveness to carry on with it. Always chose you over anyone else.
That’s the plan. Thanks, Fia.
Very very good write….⭐for you.
Thank you, Peter. Much appreciated.
hello beautiful Pink one this is self empowering good for you wish I was so strong 💕
Thank you Crimsin. Oddly, it did take some strength to sever that final tie to him- but not as much as I thought it would.
If you could see my smile …
It’s never too late. Strong, empowering, solid write, Pink.
Thanks, Adira. I really appreciate your comments.
A strong poem letting go and finding yourself in the act. A great thing you did.
John
Thank you. It’s been a gradual process. Now the final tie has been severed. Yay.
I’m so proud of you Pink 👏❤️
Thanks. I’m proud of myself.