I had you in my hands
held you like a song I couldn’t stop playin
the melody curlin in my ribs
like it was carved there to stay
every note I played was for you
and you were the only rhythm I could hear
the only sound I needed
but I didn’t know how to hold it
how to hold you
without breakin the chords
I pulled too hard
tore too much
and then I begged for forgiveness
like I thought that was enough
you gave it to me
you gave me everythin
your heart. your hands
your patience
endless
even after I shattered us
with the same fuckin hands
I promised you I would change
that I’d stop chasin ghosts
that made me lose you in the first place
but I kept lookin back
kept fallin into the same cracks
I promised to fill with somethin better
I kept breakin us
and you kept lettin me back in
but love doesn’t stay
in broken pieces
and forgiveness doesn’t heal
what’s been shattered
too many times
you loved me like the music
that played in my quiet moments
the music that I couldn’t hear it anymore
I drowned it out
with the noise of my own mistakes
and you…
you kept lovin me
even when I couldn’t stop myself
from ruinin it
I had you
I had everythin
but I only knew how to ruin it
now the silence sings louder than our song
and I’m left with the ghosts
of what we were
a melody I’ll never play again
and a love I’ll never hold
Tremendous work. Powerful writing.
appreciate that Thomas
Now I’m getting almost afraid to open the page, in a good way, a very good way.
God damn. It’s like watching f’in life. How it used to be, played out through someone else’s eloquence.
Don’t
Stop
appreciate it. glad these seem to be speakin to some people.
hello dearesst poet I am haunted by ghosts too times I let people and animals down so I love harder today so not to lament these years great write 💕
feel that. thank you crimsin
Now this brought tears.
“I didn’t know how to hold it….”
“without breaking the chords”
damn. tears? thank you
Powerfully penned, Ambjr. Pulls at my heartstrings, I felt every word my friend. Appreciate you.
Damian
thank you Damian